I went to see a psychic.
In 2016 my husband and I had our first miscarriage. As anyone knows who ever has gone through this, it’s absolutely heartbreaking. Not only do you have to move on with a broken heart, but you create a heightened anxiety and fear for your next pregnancy. It was a very emotional time for me. We were trying to get pregnant for about 2 years before this happened. I wanted answers, I wanted someone to tell me that everything will be ok and work out with my next pregnancy, I wanted to be pregnant again.
Seeking answers to all my questions and in a moment of vulnerability I decided I wanted to see a psychic. Originally, I heard about all the options and ideas that I could go up to do in Sedona, AZ. I am not from Arizona so once I heard that Sedona was known for all that I wanted to take my sister up there.
We never made it and again, another moment of weakness, I found myself at this small-town wine festival. Sitting right there in the middle of the fair was a large sign saying PSYCHIC READINGS. This was my moment. I wanted this lady to tell me I was going to be pregnant next month; I wanted this lady to tell me it was going to be a healthy baby. I only had one answer that I wanted so I went to sit down.
Now, I will be honest, I can’t remember what information I gave this girl before we even started. I believe I maybe told her I wanted her to read into my future with kids. So… she began. The Psychic told me that I will have a total of 4 kids. However, two of them will not survive and two of them will. MY HEART DROPPED. I knew I already lost one baby and the thought of another terrified me. I didn’t know if it would be another miscarriage, still birth or happen further down the road. I wanted to cry. She finished by telling me that the two kids I would end up with would be due to IVF. I walked away heartbroken and almost worse off than when I started. I didn’t get the answers I wanted.
I don’t want to say I believe in Psychics or am I against it. I know this can be a very touchy subject for many people, but I was in a very vulnerable state and was willing to seek any help I could get. To sum things up…. I did have 4 babies total, two did pass by miscarriage and I have two beautiful babies now. I did not conceive my two via IVF but did have help from the doctors to get pregnant. WOW this psychic was kind of right, but It still feels so wrong. I feel like she was so wrong for telling me so many bad things and not reading my moment of weakness. I don’t know where I stand with this whole process. In fact, I find myself thinking about it often and just hit a wall of thoughts. Will I ever go back…? Absolutely not!