I Choose Time


Currently we are in the midst of a very tight budgeting season. 2018 was not an easy one and led to a challenging 2019. We now have to watch every single dollar we spend. We are so incredibly blessed, though, because we know this is a very first world problem. We truly are “rich” and we are more than fine.

When the budget is as tight as it’s been, I’ve had to re-think everything I do. My brain immediately starts thinking about how I can bring in more money and how much easier it’d make…everything. Then I start thinking about my why. I get one shot with these three children of mine. We have chosen to homeschool and chosen for me to be home. I choose time.

I choose timeI’ll choose it again and again. 

As the saying goes, “it goes by so fast, enjoy every second.” Well, I’ll do just that. Every second. Okay, maybe not every second… because sometimes my kids make me crazy (amiright?!). But most seconds. And if this time goes by as fast as I hear it does, then doesn’t that mean that this time of our extreme budget will go by fast too? When I tuck my kids into bed at night, no matter what our day was like, I miss them. I look at their sweet, angelic faces and I don’t care what happened that day. All I think about is the good. I know that I’m going to look back on my time at home with my babies with that same sentiment. It’s not going to matter how much money we had. What’s going to matter is what we did with what we DO have. And that is time.

Right before sitting down to write, I had a breakdown. A cry. A moment when I was just sad. Holy cow, it’d be so much easier if I didn’t have to budget every. single. thing. If I could buy myself new clothes. Or throw big birthday parties for both my fall-born babies. Or just go out to a restaurant without counting every penny. Sometimes I need to be sad. I need to sit in the “I’m not okay.” Once I sit in that for a moment or two or three, I can pick myself up and move on. Because, truly, time. That’s my choice. Time with my babies.

i choose time

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I am a fourth generation Phoenix native and absolutely love it. My husband is the Community Life pastor at our church and I am so proud to be his. I have three kiddos...5 year old Knox, 3 year old Silas, and 8 month old Amelie. I taught 4th and 5th grade for four years, but realized my true dream was being home with my babies. Getting messy, going to the zoo, playing in the mud, and making slime are just a few of our favorite things to do together. We have 2 dogs, a cat, and 11 chickens, because, apparently, I felt like we needed a zoo at our house (and I'm desperately in love with animals). I love to do crafts, organize, and make memories with my family. Introverted, a number 9 on the Enneagram, and total coffee fanatic, you can also find me binging crime documentaries on Netflix (once my kiddos are in bed).


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